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the tale of the ronin and the bride really changed the entire premise and promise of the show. because mizu really could've been happy. she WAS! she was happy. she fell in love and found peace and she was about to accept all of herself and openly be all of herself but then it was robbed from her.
and not to push my taimizu agenda again (sorry) but for taigen to behave the same way mikio did from the inevitable gender reveal would be so redundant in my opinion. it would be different if mikio didn't exist and that whole storyline didn't exist, but it does. so taigen won't need to play that role of "guy falls in love with mizu, only to find out mizu is a woman* who's insanely good at fighting, and then lashes out at her and destroys their relationship" anymore. someone already did that before him.
like! i was thinking about how taigen's reaction might mirror that of avigdor in yentl, which is the movie that inspired the love triangle in BES. so if you haven't watched yentl, basically it's about a woman named yentl who crossdresses as a man so she can study and go to school. at the school she befriends avigdor, who is just as passionate about her studies as she is and they basically become best friends who bond over their debates of rabbinic literature. yentl falls in love with him, and it's implied that avigdor also starts feeling that way for yentl, despite believing her to be a man. at the end of the story, yentl reveals herself to avigdor, and he lashes out at her for having "tainted" everything and for having made him a "sinner." he gets angry, there's an argument as he demands to know why she did it and why she is exposing herself now, and yentl ends up breaking down crying, confessing that she loves him. avigdor holds her and comforts her, confessing his mutual feelings towards her, and they kiss. and then they talk about running away together and eloping, but in avigdor's plans, yentl would have to be his wife and thus would no longer be able to do what she loves (study). so they end up parting ways and yentl leaves aboard a ship to find her own freedom.
so anyway, the parallels of yentl=mizu and avigdor=taigen are clear, but to me, it would be rather redundant if taigen were to try to force mizu into this role of a docile wife again. because that's what mikio tried to do! and mizu had done it, and was about to do it again. for a year she lived as a submissive wife and even began to enjoy it. and after sparring with mikio and him rejecting her masculine side, she put on her bridal robes and her makeup in hopes to apologise.
so whatever taigen's reaction will be, i think will definitely be a parallel to mikio's, but i think will end up contrasting it in the end (see: my taigen and mikio are narrative foils post)
i mean, definitely there will be conflict and drama though, about that there is no doubt. especially cuz we all know taigen is a huge drama queen, there's no way he WON'T make a big deal out of it—and this would be the case even IF he grows enough to be able to deal with all his conflicting feelings internally instead of lashing out. regardless, he won't be so accepting immediately, but i don't think he will outright betray her and be an antagonist again.
idk idk. i'm just having lots of thoughts about this now.
#taigen blue eye samurai#mizu blue eye samurai#blue eye samurai#taimizu#mizu x taigen#taigen's reaction might mirror li shang's more tbh sdkjddj#like he was upset and tried to ignore mulan but then in the end he still helped her#idk! im just yapping dont mind me#shut up haydar#fandom.rtf
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just got reminded of this 'debate' that even dream spoke about because of the video, so heres my thoughts:
dream was right when he said that its completely possible to make a fun and entertaining sr video without using any of the stuff modern speedrunners use. speedrunners who beat the game random seed in like 9-10 minutes are skilled no doubt. theyre good at parkour (usually) and they have vast technical knowledge of the game up to and including bugs and glitches + they use calculators. and its correct that it doesnt make for very accessible videos. they dont make an average viewer with not much technical know how of the game itself feel welcomed. things happen so fast even a long time mc video watcher would get lost. but the opposite of that is exactly what the latest video was all about. they dont use any of the glitches, they never use calculators to find out the coords of the portal to the stronghold, they just do simple fucking maths to figure that out. hell they even fail to one cycle the fucking dragon (bro missed the head every time except one😭😭) and i think that is exactly why dteam videos do so much better than any of the famous sr videos. this video is literal proof of what dream said was true
some more things that i think make the video feel so well structured: sapnap bridging over to the fortress with dirt blocks. istg we see that exact same angle of him bridging like 4 times in the same exact way. and that creates a story 'beat' here imo. to signal that this is an important part of the run. same with george finally getting the way to loot the chest with the obi. same with dream running around the last bit of the red nether forest to get to the top of the bunched up gold blocks. same with the sand block with the snow layer that sapnap breaks for the stronghold. same with the soul sand the portal spawns them on entering the nether. also the block placement as sapnaps leaving the fortress. its like nearly the same shot every time. im not saying they did those things consciously, but that the editing choices were no coincidence
wait. that makes so much sense. a timeloop movie would be edited exactly like that. DID HE WATCH A MOVIE AND THEN EDIT THIS????? tbf ik only tenet and looper that are like this BUT THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE I SHOULDA REALISED EARLIER
#they filmed back before dream did his hours long stream in like november right?#so i wonder if dream had this video in mind when he was speaking about all that#also idk why i wrote this ignore me if im wrong or whatever#i dont usually write like long paragraphs like this idk this video is just that good it makes want to yap and yap and yap about it#druka rambles#yeah this one deserves that tag
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gymnast kaito x sharpshooter shinichi meet-cute in the olympics au
#kaishin#i can already hear my brain going BUT SOCCER PLAYER SHINICHI RAAAAAAHHHHH#but shapshooter shinichi tho cmoooon CMOOONN#yall have seen the olympic athletes yall have seen the flavor#i saw yeji and yusuf and im like OKAY SHINICHI SHARPSHOOTER#also gymnast kaito this is canon in my brain idc#i would love to see kaito's floor routine like pleaaaaaseeee#also that one epke zonderland london 2012 high bar routine but make it kuroba fucking kaito RAAAAHHH#also also in my mind shinichi would only wear glasses and he'd affectionately call it 'conan'#idk a whole lot about the olympics and either sports so im not confident enough to make hcs#thats why im just yapping here LOL#might binge watch some olympics related videos and articles later idk#yell some hcs for this au at me I'd love to know!!!!!!#dc prattles#ALSO FUN IF KAITO GREW UP IN PARIS AND HE'S REPRESENTING FRANCE WHEWWWW#but it's also fun if kaishin are both team jp and theyret meeting for the first time yippeeee#akai would be shinichi's coach maybe 🤔#also i looked it ip and apparently karate was removed from the official olympic games FUCK but WE DONT CARE BECAUSE#OLYMPIC ATHLETE BESTIES SONOSHINRAN MY BELOVED I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU#anyway sonoko in gymnastics ran in karate and sharpshooter shinichi WOW WOW WAIT MY BRAIN HAVING A MASSIVE ROT RIGHT NOW#oh you just know sonoko does all those tiktoks with a shy but excited ran and completely forced to participate shinichi LMAO#kaishin meet through sonoko ofc 👀👀👀#sonoko and kaito are besties too and are familiar with each other for both being in the gymnastics scene#anyway kaito and shinichi meet and kiss and fall in love#ALSO SHINICHI THIRSTING OVER KAITO'S MUSCLES LMAOOOO#AND KAITO THIRSTING OVER A FULLY CLOTHED SHINICHI POISED FOR A SHOT LIKEEEE#oh they wanna makeout real bad i fear#ALSO KAITO IS THAT ONE ATHLETE WHO KEEPS STEALING THE CHOCOLATE MUFFINS IN THE OLYMPIC VILLAGE LMFAOOOO#the tiktoks of that guy was so funny lol i just know kaito would do the same#you know what maybe I should've just typed this on the post and not on the tags but it's too late now LMAO i want more of them tho omg 😳
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I can think of a lot of reasons why I like and have gotten attached to tsukasa more than any other fictional character and i think if i had to keep it simple (or else id be rambling for hours) id say
1. He’s so interesting. I usually pick up the extremely mischaracterized blonde characters anyways but he gets my brain working real hard. its almost 2am and i cant think straight but theres something about his duality that keeps me glued to him and the amount of Layers he has and how removing even one layer or completely ignoring how both his huge ego and kindness + selflessness coexist can really mess up your perception of him. There was something quite short i wrote about how both sides make him. Well. Him. back when his colofes dropped since i was so annoyed at the people Not getting it (while most never even read the STORIES 😁) anf ive been screaming this for a year now Please. Also the way his dream and being a good big brother go hand in hand have captured me. I really like fictional siblings and they fill something personal i miss and Looove looking at the roots of characters. Discovering where this and that and connecting events to what started their behaviors or helped their personality bloom. So seeing saki and toya play such an important role in his life keeps me HOOOKEDDD. I took the bait like tiny fish. Dont regret it. Never will. I like my fictional characters like layered cake. Thats basically how i see them. I had a yummy chocolate cake with so mant layers the other day 🤤 but anyways. I also really like when characters have to learn and grow as people after making really bad mistakes or being straight up assholes so it really took a while even after mainstory but once i got to see more of him with saki and read dazzling i was like. This is the guyyy. Youre mine now lets go. I dont like perfect characters but.. you see.. when characters who have (sometimes way too much) confidence and are dramatic yet are shown to truly be good people who enjoy making others happy… alright.. now im listening… Sign me up…
But really he has almost everything I’ve ever looked for in a character. Starting with the fact that he’s a theatre kid. And blonde. Of course emu nene and rui + more fictional characters have made their way into my heart and ive gotten attached to them on very Very personal levels but when it comes to this Idiot who wants to be a star and reminds me of a dog its something that i dont even know how to explain sometimes. Why is he here? What are you doing inside of my head. Ill never have one solid answer because he takes up too much space in my mind and i become incoherent too often when talking about him.
2. Ignoring my first answer, He is ugly. My favorite punching bag. Cartoon character. Begins floating when he smells pie. I dont know anymore
3. he just like me fr (Which is terrible i dont like that)
#if any part of this doesnt make sense or isnt rightpleass correct me#This is what i mean by tsukasa makes me lose my mind#I really cannot think straight when it comes to this show freak#3. Is more of a complicated thing. I dont Actually hate relating to him im joking but uhh#idk how to explain this i mean theres still a Lot that makes us very VERY different uhh#i think sometimes its just a little bit of annoyance like Why him. Why is it always the egotistical blonde ones#also i wouldnt say relating to him as much as i do right now is that bad (although i am much more self aware than him so. Yeah sometimes#I get annoyed with myself as well) i think its just the way ive been treated like i AM him before because of how much i do#Like guys. Come on now i get seeing people as their pfps or fav characters but thats a bit much#And theres plenty of other characters i relate to#Anyways ignoring rant in tags#I need to sleep. Right now. I cant believe i stayed up just to talk about little freak Tsukasa Tenma#ramble#rant#might delete later#tsukasa tenma#tenma tsukasa#wxs tsukasa#pjsk#prsk#project sekai#idk what im yapping about#yapping#tsukasa pjsk#tsukasa#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#shouldve kept this in drafts AAHH!!!!!
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Been LOVING your lil magician folks recently please continue they're beautiful and very cute and cool and also very well-designed!! 🥺❤️
thank you for the kind words !!! im not much of a writer, but i do have some sort of story in mind for them.. theyre bitter rivals who end up as roommates bc of their scatterbrained elderly landlord lol
#idk how much of it im gonna keep or change but thats basically the gist of it ^_^#i dont know if i could ever write a solid linear story bc im very indecisive and tend to change things a lot so most of what i make ends up#very abstract or nonlinear.. just short drabbles or stuff that can be slotted into a general setting or premise#although i do want to challenge myself to try and write some sort of enemies/rivals to friends because i have a huge weak spot for that#dynamic!! i tend to be a little soft on my characters which i think has to do with me being a conflict avoidant person. so maybe exploring#this kind of dynamic will help me experiment with my sense of storytelling. although i cant promise it will be written well lol#im also thinking of making their story part of a bigger world so kinda like an omnibus?? i have another story in mind i think i can fit int#the same canon and itd be funny if theres like a bunch of wacky going ons between different apartment tenants nichijou style#but we'll see!!! thank you for your interest in these little shits!!!!#my art#myart#my oc#oc#presto#shuffle#house of cards#oc talk#ask#doodles#yapping
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I have not posted any of my analysis to reddit yet and I think I might just post it and ghost it. I've already spent too much time looking at other people's threads on there to feel any way good about interacting with folks.
I already went in an added the "I know you're going to bring this up let me save you the time" section which is exclusively touching on the frequent topics of:
"well what about the fingerprint nostrum and finger mimics? He is clearly just a crackpot"
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"it's definitely some weird elaborate sacrifice to Metyr thing"
#if he's drinking hallucinogenic tea in his free time genuinely good for him. whatever man. i just do not think either of those items are-#at all relevant to the quest especially the nostrum because it is a placebo medicine and aint nothing fake about this shit#also i think theres a distinction between becoming fingers vs wanting to replace metyr? idk like as ive said i think he thinks he's-#better than the fingerweavers and rightfully so#like please come to a new conclusion other than “man this guy is on drugs”#also girl... metyr doesnt need sacrifices. like? where is that textually or in set design? metyr wants us to leave her the fuck alone#she's minding her own business EVERY TIME WE SPAWN INTO HER ZONE#like why are people so desperate for everything to have a dark undercurrent? not everything has to be some dark disney ass shit#“actually finding nemo is a hallucination & Marlin is insane & nemo is dead that movie is actually super fucked up & dory is a grim reaper”#like im sorry but this is how this extra shit all feels to me#like it is already fucked up and miserable?#is he 100% a good person? like thats genuinely person to person. theres personal gain from the quest#and hes definitely very good at getting what he wants#manipulate manifest mother#tail fingers on the vision board#devon yaps#and yap I did#like I don't want to be a bitch because yeah we should genuinely celebrate other peoples theories and hcs in these games#but i dont think “lol this guy is just on drugs” is one of those things#because i like spooky theories if theyre backed up.#but to say “its this weirdly horrible thing and youre all wrong” especially in his context is not great to me#Sorry. like may my own arrogance strike me down like the scholar i think i am 😤 farewell#because again its coming down to meeting this narrative without preconceived bias and most of the reddit stuff feels like-#“he is fucked up. won't say why. but i bet you know why i actually think this 🤫🤫🤫” like just you cant wrap your brain around guy mom#i do really want to reiterate this is about reddit shit. like i am so into people who love his character but interpret him more sinister💕😚#truly eating that shit up
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* so dumb that my main blog which iz also my suppozed pnf blog haz a stupid meaningless url based on like not even an inside joke but just a Conversation w my partner , and this , my suppozed EVERYTHING-OTHER-THAN-PNF BLOG haz a damn pnf themed url . a fucking awesome 1 but thatz besidez the point . i should really change my mainz url , ive wanted 2 make it more pnf themed 4 agez but i also dont wanna change the wb signature i put on my art yk . i like ittttt fml
#phinz wordz#i only recently started posting like . just my own yapping here yk n pnf iz just what im currently fixated on#n i realized i feel a lot safer sharing my dumbass takez n hcz here cuz idk . over there i feel Pnf Fan Eyez on me and thatz scary#im going 2 get all my lore wrong and theyre going 2 kill me w hammerz . yk . but here ive got like fop and animaniacz followerz#and less ppl probably care#ofc in recent timez ive been gaining pnf followerz which suckz 4 me but thatz what happenz when u post pnf 2 ur non-pnf blog DUMBASS#i dont Mind . yk . im glad a select few enjoy my pnf posting here#what im saying iz i make questionable uzername decizionz
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yapping a little bit to a boy about my favorite bands and him being super excited to listen to them and being super interested in hearing more........ (hacker voice) im in
#just me rambling again#this is the dude i was excited to be connecting with bc it was an opportunity to develop a crush#and just generally this is great for the life plot#im trying to not get too ahead of myself though i don't want to crush too bad he doesnt even know if he likes guys#admittedly i am flirting though in sort of the only ways i know how (yapping)#i hate to say it though but since weve only been communicating over text and he doesnt have any photos of himself on instagram#im so scared im not gonna find him attractive????? guys dont cancel me /j but im so worried that if i find out what he looks like#now i wont think hes pretty obviously i love talking to him but this is such a concern in my mind rn bc physical attraction obviously#does at least somewhat affect having a crush on someone y'know#and i havent seen his face since like?? 8th grade i think#wild#omg another person from middle school followed me on Instagram earlier too? it was really weird idk how they found me#or even knew that it was me (different name than back then) but whatever ig#GUH OH MY GOD WHAT IF HE HAS A BAD HAIRCUT guys im so sorry-
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this entire year has been flop after flop why am i losing so bad your honor i am literally just some guy
#im yapping u can move on if u dont wanna hear my life story#first i get nuked by stomach pains when i go to visit my friends#something that had been ongoing for years but#my best friend convinces me to see a doctor that year#my condition deteriorates no matter what meds they put me on#i finally get a more invasive exam that shows my intestines were inflamed#i get put on fucking steroids that fuck me up physically and emotionally#i go through multiple med school exams after spending months in crippling pain#pain so bad id be bedridden for hours#got 6 weeks of migraines near daily#sometimes multiple in a day#stressed out of my mind by the time my finals came around to the point that i could no longer bring myself to care#bc i was sure id fail no matter how hard i studied#visit my friends again bc somehow its already winter again#am a nervous wreck all the time and retreat into my phone#but also hate myself for not spending what little time i had fully present#constantly worn out and exhausted bc my meds are barely working#and id found out i was allergic to a lot of things so i was cutting a lot of things out of my diet#lmfao it was so bad my weight still hasnt recovered but yeah i come back i start 3rd year#the toll the last year had taken on my mental health finally registers#i become too depressed to study for my hardest module yet#UGH THATS SO CRINGE JUST SIT DOWN AND STUDY??#but nothing was sticking on god#anyway im sure ive failed#and la salud mental no es bien or soemthing idk i havent taken spanish in 3 years#anyway deep sigh i just stay losing#i cant believe im in like four fucking research projects and classes and trying to work on myself this shit sucks balls#and clinical rotations...#lord just strike me down
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" Now that I think about it... I have the sensation I never had that happening. Could say I never paid it any mind either. It's not like I don't especially like it, not a complex either. However, is it really ok? No... can't be ok. Can't help but think it's something I lost in the daily battles towards becoming a hero. Am I supposed to have this issue more in mind? Come to think of it, I didn't really have time to unpack it... if it was a normal guy then... "
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" That’s not the point... I have the feeling that things like a heart to heart interaction, sharing an umbrella, warmth, are all things broken away in my life. Other people can have things like big events and circumstances happening, romances and such bringing happiness in their daily lives. I have the feeling something broke, and that sweet-like fluffy, nice stuff just fell right off from me. That's what I meant. "
#HOPELESS ROMANTIC ALERT IM LOSING MY MIND ⚠️⚠️⚠️#NO I CANT DO THIS forst off he's YAPPING oh my GOD he really cant stfu when getting a chance to talk abt his feelings and oh. he's SO#CONFUSED LMAO#Saitama is barely ever in touch w/ himself & his desires and it's always a bunch of questions marks when actually trying to understand#- what he exactly feels lacking abd at what point and why#but every time it's just something is Deeply Wrong w/ me and /idk what is it/#HE MAKES ME UPSET IM GONNA KILL HIM HE HAS TO DIE.#I cant believe i only found this audio rn. it's so good im gonna bite someone#“ Saitama isn't interested in romance ” THIS “Saitama doesn't want a partner ” THAT ooooh shut up!!!!!!!!!#he's just a simple guy trying to look for social interconnections while being Very Depressed and BIOLOGICAL BROKEN#it's not about what he doesn't want it's about what he wants and believes HE'S NOT CAPABLE OF HAVING#PUNCHES THE WALL PUNCHES THE WALL!!!!!#⋆ ★ 【サイタマ】 : ̗̀➛ study.#( ps. Saitama reads shoujo & appreciates a good romance in action movies. dont be mean to the romantic in him. )
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being extroverted must be awesome imagine feeling nothing after telling someone "wow youre REALLY quiet". im going to talk less around you now 🫶
#i know i got anxiety like a motherfucker and as much as i love my cave where my objects of comfort are i also like going places sometimes#there was a time where id go to a store and then do what i needed and then exit the store#nowadays i find myself yapping at The Store especially if i need help getting something done. etc#also sometimes people at Places are such dicks the best way to get them to fuck off is to mind your own business#assholes need an audience and people who arent assholes wont demand your attention you feel me?#i am less scared of people these days 👍 the interactions however#scripting is at times my friend and also my flop. i know what to say on what days with select people in my kingsley-safe zones#but if anything goes off script ... flop. meltdown. fear. anguish. death. dying. death.#i feel like these kinda conversations get TOO heavy handed on treating introverted people as these self righteous misanthropes#who are too full of their own selves and their own time to want to reach out and build connections#and i feel like its just unfair and it pushes introverts further into their caves#i aint a fucking doctor nor am i a people expert. im not a people person. i dont trust easily and i dont speak unless spoken to#or unless im on tumblr lol#but i do know that it cannot seriously be helpful to NOT help socially awkward people. where do yall get off on calling anyone immature#for not being 100% type a?#that doesnt make anything better. that doesnt encourage conversations and that for fucking sure doesnt encourage people#to step out of their bubble#ok im mostly rambling because there are times where tough love advice is warranted but there are times where its bullying disguised as TL#i know this is the 'ummm why dont you have friends party and socialize more???' website but idk. it could not be!#anyway proud of myself for not freaking the fuck out during a conversation at the collectors store today#proud of myself for being able to goof off in public and proud of myself for staying the fuck home when i wann stay the fuck home
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i am my father's son (enjoyer of irl sidequests)
#i didn't get to do the sidequest i almost got though 😔#i exited my apartment. theres a guy outside and i greet him bc i assumed he was a neighbour#and he greets me back and then hes like im sorry i hopped over the fence as a shortcut idk if that's fine#nd then continued and said he'll check if he dropped something#and i'm like yea ok sure!#bc i was going to lidl and i wanted to get going but i did just stand there for a bit in case the guy needed help or something#then he emerged from the fence area and he was like ''if you find something in there can you pick it up akd put out a note'' and i was like#yea ofc! i'll do that if i see anything#and then he was like this is a very nice area so i trust people will let me know if i did drop something#and i was like for sure#im not great at smalltalk but he was very polite so i tried my best#also he seemed like he wasnt having the best time#he might have been on something bc he was slurring his speech and drooling a lot and there was a certain look in his eyes but honestly that#none of my business#we said bye and i sat in my car and then he was like ''hey actually i live like a minute away super close but my bag is super heavy#can i get a ride there it's super close next to [redacted]''#and i moved my bag from the front seat and was like ''yea sure''#and then he stared at me for a bit and was like ''actually i dont want to bother you have a nice day bye'' and left with a wave#i was like you too and waved back#he didnt look like he had any trouble walking so i came to the conclusion that he's fine and then went to lidl#but honestly i am a bit disappointed he didnt want me to give him a ride after all bc he seemed like he would have interesting things to sa#he was super polite and talked a lot and despite me being a finn i dont always mind strangers talking to me#bc if i have nothing important to do it's like. might as well!#another chat outside my apartment ive had was this old lady and she knew a lot about the history of the area we live in#and it was very interesting and also like i said if im in no hurry to go anywhere i love listening to ppl yap about whatever#i hope both the fence hopping guy and the old lady are doing good#leevi talks
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𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ𐀔... (imp)
#ive seen ppl w mdni coded bios follow me and i dont really mind that i suppose but like#u guys know im a minor right..#just#idk this is a psa#yin yaps ₊˚. 𖦹.♡︎🪼
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who up seeing their disorder in a fictional character but feel like its not their place to put a name on it
#id have to be waterboarded before i can talk abt how i see a lot of my adhd and personality in mitsumi iwakura let alone post it#idk how to talk abt this without feeling like im talking over or invalidating ppls experiences relating with a character#someone was talking abt how ppl tie laios' autism to special interest and social difficulties but not much else which kinda flattens it#and then went into a respectful in depth analysis of other autistic behaviour that laios exhibits and it wasnt phrased meanly#its fascinating and important to me to hear someone explain a little bit abt traits that they recognized and often go overlooked#because it does help me learn more about it. but i think thats also where hesitancy kicks in when it comes to depicting it accurately#like i have adhd and some of my adhd symptoms overlap with autism (time blindness and pattern seeking behaviour) but that only means#it feels familiar to me even without having autism. on top of that traits arent always cleanly determined as being /caused/ by#a disorder. to understand my environment i compare it to something unrelated but similar to make it more familiar and for the longest time#i thought that was a personality thing and not an information processing thing since i loved playing pretend in my head as a kid#so if you make a character who experiences that hoping to reach people that also experience that and tell them its not weird or#smth youre making up like. thats the goal. ppl who dont get it arent expected to it just means it doesnt cater to them but it helps them#become familiar to it yk? since i dont have autism myself i dont feel confident i can depict it properly or explain it in my own words#but that doesnt mean im trying to dismiss it or try and cut it out completely.. ill just leave the floor open to someone who /can/#a lot of issues around fanon depictions are when smth is baselessly popularized or a characters personality and behavior is flattened#especially to fit them into a trending meme. its harmless and its supposed to be for fun but it gets tricky when you drag things that#need to be carefully explained beforehand or else it gets lost in translation. like that tweet abt 'hyperfixating' on cooking pasta#once it becomes popular language usually the original meaning is left out for the sake of simplifying it for everyone that when it#circles back theres a sort of hesitancy like. am i using it the way it was intended or am i unknowingly using the popularized version of it#actually thats probably why i felt wrongfooted during diagnosis bc it felt like i was misusing the words i heard to describe what i felt#i /know/ i see a lot of myself in mitsumi because our minds are always somewhere else and we tend to put good faith first and for me#that personal connection is enough. but idk it feels like its always gonna have to be 'palatable' first before i can talk abt it openly#mad respect to writers and creators who stick to their story even if theres the looming fear of ppl misinterpreting it and letting them#have it.. its been almost 2 weeks and i am so close to deleting that m3 dunmeshi drawing bc ppl keep saying chilchuck wouldnt have 200 HP#IT LITERALLY SAYS I MADE IT WHILE WATCHING EP 1. I USED EARTHBOUND LOGIC AND I WASNT EVEN TAKING IT SERIOUSLY CHILL#yapping
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there's no way i saw bitches going insane over coral island. mobile game animations, dialogue written like they've never interacted with a human, quests telling you to go somewhere you have never been told about, characters i Still don't know the names of because they're So Empty. i dont care that its early access this shit is so janky .
edit: its not. ea anymore? oh. oh my god.
#never mind the price being £25/$30 like No. No Fucking Way#(i was gifted a key so i can yap actually)#callie plays ci#dialogue worse than [i was shot]#its a farm game im gonna put hours into it. if mp is working ill do an mp run with friends (what i was actually gifted it for but no mp yet#buhhhh#music that has position cut offs!!!!!! NO!!!! why do i walk up to the blacksmith and the MUSIC STOPS? NO#certain sound effects not turning down with the volume slider (what the actual fuck) so youll be watering vibing and ur ears.#violently hit with a loud door rattle noise. putting stuff in the chest is still so loud. why? idk. my sound effects are on 1.#i could keep going#the end of day menu screen where the total is green so my brain thinks i should click that to continue (because its the only different -#- colored piece of ui) but actually it does nothing and you have to click the button a the bottom. oh and its on escape. why is it not on e#i dont know. is e used? its rotate. furniture . dont get me started on the furniture#i could rebind it BUT! the esc button is actually the back button so that means to get to the next day you actually press the BACK BUTTON?#the animal crossing nod. absolutely not. why. - the intro quests being so stardew its like you just asked to copy homework
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youd think that out of all my homophobic/transphobic family members that my queer ally mother wouldn't be the one forcing me to present more feminine
#like excuse me???#ever since cutting my hair short/more masc its always “wear more jewelry cause you know..” and “you wear more make up”#and its pissing me off#cause i do want to and like too but not in a “i want to be perceived as feminine” way and it just feels ruined#i want to be able to do it on my own terms#idk of its a protection thing? like she doesnt want me to me misgendered but she knows i dont mind it#cause its only ever in passing from people i’ll never see again and i do sort feel complimented#that people arent perceiving me as strictly fem and i can be androgynous#like my mom knows my pronouns so why is she pushing me to be feminine#yeah 👍#if youre seeing this#sorry#i need a journal i know#im just so so pissed#vent#personal#gender stuff#it took late for this#good night#vio yaps
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